DC Effect Series
Final Stage of My Psychic Development and Spiritual Path
Sunday 16th August 1998
much of my life I have spent a separate existence and experienced
this as so at many levels of both personal and professional communication.
It has not been without a mental demand however an inner spiritual
sense provided me with the he resolve to achieve this position
in each phase of my life here on earth.
can recall how people I have met and at what points they came
into as well as left my life. However, my recent psychic experiences
leave me wishing to focus on the present rather than dwell or
reconnect with past events from this life.
Friday as a strong connection was made, a clear bridge was created
between my physical; mental and etheric body and those 'on the
other side' who have been my companions during this earthly life.
I sensed a shift of energy within me and around not my physical
but my etheric body and through the etheric connection I was lifted
beyond the physical and into a spiritual dimension.
result is a sense, which can be closely visualised as an image,
which has become clearer for me in the past couple of days. Imagining
my upper body the whole of my chest and abdomen has a radiating
circle of energy. The energy is black or dark blue sapphire and
cuts out the density of light except when I am talking or relating
to someone else. At this point, if that person is in need or expressing
themselves either verbally or through their energy configuration
then it is as if their energy strikes across me causing the black
sapphire energy within me to reflect out light blue fragments
of energy. I do not know how this 'reflected' for want of a better
word, energy effects them or the situation around them. I shall
observe over the next week or so.
whole area of a bridge or strong connection having been created
I sense that before I was like a radio transmitter - receiving
rather than giving out, either on paper or verbally, to myself
and others. Now I have a sense that differently than before were
I took periodic sojourns to 'the other world' Friday saw me making
the connection as a part of my earthly future experience. I picked
up one book on the occult at random this morning and simply opened
it. This is the copy I have made from it for my records:
natural psychism is the fruit of training undergone in past lives.
This training is of two type; it may have been designed to produce
the sybil, the watcher of the magical mirror; or it may be the
result of initiation and adepthood. The former type gives the
passive negative psychism and is usually found in psychics of
little mentality, the latter type has invariably associated with
it qualities of mind and character which show the lineage of the
soul. When one who has previously been initiate has reached the
point of this incarnation when he is ready to take the Path again,
he is gathered back into his old Order and reinitiated."
fully initiated adept should have the three-fold contracts of
mystic devotion, occult wisdom, and the primitive nature-forces.
The spiritual, the intellectual and the elemental must be perfectly
balanced in his nature, and so disciplined by the will that they
are absolutely flexible to the control and judgment. The character
of the adept may be summed up in one brief phrase - he is a soldier-scholar
dedicated to the service of God."
to the experience of not only Friday but also the ensuing couple
of days since I, on Friday, was shown a connectedness which is
normally as clearing crated in our minds. We are aware of in a
vague event specific ways of such connectedness however this was
a broad view of seeing without relation to any one event. A countries
history, and individuals experience and a world expression were
given to me without feeling or thought but instead simple commentary.
It demonstrated to me a balance which the experiences of this
life, when combined with the experiences and spiritual connection
of previous lives, has created within me. I was at this point
left with an awareness that I have seen what is not to be seen
living must know little of that worldview save to glimpse what
is needed by them at a precise moment in their life. My experience
is not for their teaching, gain or insight but simply for my understanding
and development. I recall words from the section quoted above
which goes on to say ". . . When one who have previously
been initiate has reached the point in this incarnation when he
is ready to take the Path again, he is gathered back into his
old Order and reinitiated. From that moment no more is heard
publicly of his psychism."
have to retire from much of my old life as it has been to this
point in time. With the flat move on the horizon the group has
disbanded. With the effort required to create a substantial business
income based on the opportunities of laser and light therapy I
have no time, or wish for that matter, to teach energy workshops
of the like.
still have a yearning to quietly provide readings but I feel that
this is probably more of the nature of teaching rather than an
hours bringing forth the persons current and future difficulties.
I understand, in this context, why the business to be founded
on my psychic abilities was not to happen. As well I understand
my deep core reticence or rather resistance to this happening
by rejecting the larger public expositions of my talents. I recall
how each psychic I have consulted for personal readings has noted
that I shall teach on a grand scale. However, I believe that my
teaching will incorporate other elements, as I believe it has
done already, as a public foil for the inner spiritual dimensions
of all my past and future work.
have seen and visited the pace of return after my death and it
not from whence I came before this incarnation into this life.
The demands of this life and the way in which I have found strength
to carry the ordeals as well as the strength to resist the left
hand path has carved a place for my souls journey beyond that
which I believed I would one day in the death return to.
is a brotherhood waiting for me of new dimensions than before
and those who were familiar to me from before life with those
whom I knew in this life who are dead can only sense me in the
future for we shall never meet again. Their energy exists in a
place so different from mine - they would know me for a short
while and I trust that what was given has blessed them, nourished
them on their future journey.
years after Robert's death he was to return to me whilst I was
still available to him and tell me of his thanks for my gift which
now, only in his new understanding, did he fully realise. He was
to have been told or given a chance through others to see what
he only could vaguely feel in outline alone during his time with
as he died we were really saying good-bye for the very last time.
I shall not return to this world of life ever again and there
are few that know me now who will meet me again. I shall stay
a while and share all that I can with a sense of balanced urgency.
My nomadic feelings within my very soul which have been with me
since I can remember become clearer when I grasp the realisation
that I have nothing to return to once my time is over. I leave
to join a brethren that for hundreds of years I have wondered
about. I will not go home I will start afresh and death shall
bring no rest. Death will end my separation. For my time here
a bridge has been created which I shall do no wrong to break free
of and my ordinance of whatever life is left will be based on